Went to watch Phantom of Opera last night. The lead Phantom was GREAT! His singing was both mesmerizing and powerful, filled with emotion. Can’t say I am too impressed with the rest of the cast though. Maybe it is only because his performance was so good that it overshadowed the rest of the cast. However, the sets were impressive. I would have loved to be seating in the front row and see the chandelier plunging down from the ceiling. All in all, it was a credible performance and we did enjoyed ourselves.
Was famished after the performance and went to grab supper. After that, Ade dragged me along to this Salsa Club where her friends were hanging out. I glued myself to the stool but had fun watching them dancing. Am thinking of taking lessons cos it looks really fun.
Settings from the musical.
Was hanging out by the river with M, thought the view looks tranquil and calming.
I really like this bottle of wine that N brought over. Can’t say I really like red wine but this was great!
Realised I have quite a lovely view from my place.
March 29, 2007, 2:58 am
Filed under: Movies, Music
Theme song from the movie ”Music and Lyrics”. Think the movie is kind of junkie but I really like the soundtracks inside. This particular one seems to stick in my mind.
Music and Lyrics Theme Song
Way Back Into Love
I’ve been living with a shadow overhead
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I’ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move onI’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I’ve been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh ohI’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searching but I just don’t see the signs
I know that it’s out there
There’s got to be something for my soul somewhereI’ve been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction
And I’m open to your suggestionsAll I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I’m hoping you’ll be there for me in the endThere are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I’ll be there for you in the end
Tried the drinking thing, didn’t work. Tried the movies thing, didn’t work. Tried retail therapy, didn’t work. All this self indulgences will officially be cut off tomorrow. That is the deadline that I set for myself.
I just need time…meanwhile, going about my daily life and doing stuffs help. On Monday, everything starts afresh. Work. Classes. Family.Friends. Everything goes on.
Today is going to be a great day because I want it to be.
I meet you to see if we can reinstate our friendship and we are one step in the right direction. And that is great. And that is really all there is to it.
As J said ” Don’t feel vulnerable and start comparing yourself to his girlfriend. You are who you are. Just you. ” Yes, I know and I have realised that it is silly to be feeling inferior or compare myself to her.
The point is I haven’t been a part of his life for so long and she is. All the “What if”s are really pointless cos the fact is I was out of his life and he probably can’t give me any answers cos things didn’t happen that way. I just wasn’t there. So, what answers could he have given me? End of story. Period.
This time round, I feel like I can really move on. We won’t go back to our past but we can start building a new friendship. And that is really all that I am asking for.
So many thoughts running through my head. Can’t decipher all of them. Am writing with a distinct numbness that I achieved with all the beers that I drowned.
You look different. Gained some weight. More wrinkles in your face. When I look at you, I see in you the man I had always knew you would grow into. It hurts that I wasn’t there to see how the wrinkles added on or witnessed your growth.
When you showed me your picture with her, I felt like somebody just hit me on the head. All I could registered was how happy you look and how pretty she is. And, she is successful in her career too. Wham! All my vulnerabilities and insecurities came back.
All my “what if”s remained frozen cos I realised how futile they were. With a bright smile pinned on my face, I bited back all that I wanted to tell you.
We are having lunch tomorrow and I feel so scared.
It’s so silly but I actually need to find courage just to face you again.
What will I find out tomorrow when I finally face you again. Will I be able to face my true feelings? Will I find my emotional baggage dissipating into thin air? Or will my vulnerabilities flow right back? Or will I find myself confront by the green eyed monster?
Man was telling me that she met up with you recently. And she just happened to mention:
” He is very happy with his girlfriend now. I saw a picture of two of them.”
Just 2 simple sentences. Yet, they have turned into a refrian in my heart which compounds the apprehension in my heart. I can still hear it repeating over and over again.
And, no. I do not want to see a picture of both of us you.
