In search of REM sleep

The feeling of uncertainty hangs over my head like a cloud. It is a scary feeling, not knowing what you want.

It had been disrupting my sleeping hours. And, when I finally do fall asleep, it penetrates into my dreams leaving me irritable and listless. 2 whole weeks of roaming around lost.

Telling myself to snap out of all these depressiveness is not working. I just can’t get to sleep. Resolving my confusion will help but unfortunately, after weighting all the pros and cons, I still cannot decide.

My mum commented today that she is getting worried for I am usually quite confident in my decision making. She is quite used to me deciding on what I want. Once my mind is made up, I usually just announce my decision to her and talk her into accepting my decision just by standing firm on it. Guess my prolonged uncertainty is freaking her out.

Meanwhile, I should try to relax and regulate my sleep pattern so that I can get enough REM sleep to allow my brain to do its job. Since no one is really pressing me for any decision except myself, I probably should just ease up and relax enough to sleep properly.

After all, having options is what life is about. Whatever I decide, life still goes on. Whatever direction I choose, it is my choice.