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I am really grateful to have very nice colleagues. Despite all the changes we have gone through, the unavoidable coming and going, the change in group dynamics, I have been very fortunate to have nice people around me.
I am really thankful for people like H, C, TL, AL, D and S. Even the newer people like V, SR and M are great. And, of course, my boss. She is really the best boss I have so far.
J just asked me if I want to go treeclimbing with the rest of them next week. It is some outward bound activity. I happily agreed to his surprise. His comment “I didn’t asked you as I thought you are like perpetually not keen to join us for these outdoor activities.”
This is different. Treeclimbing is one of my childhood dream! It came from reading too much Enid Blyton stories when I was young. Memories of the Faraway Tree series came floating back. And also, all the other stories involving treehouses. I am so excited.
Ok, back to reality. There is definately no fairy folks or faraway magical land for me to experience next week. More like trying to overcome my fear of jumping to catch a swing from a height. Cos beside the tree climbing, there are stunts to try as well. But, it should be fun. And, if I get to climb the tree, there is one more tiny little dream I fulfil this year.
L is feeling upset.
Same story. Same supposition. Another jerk. Her question to me “Why am I always so unlucky? Why do I always meet jerks?”
My reply “That is because you always go for the same type of guys. Same character. Same traits. Same profile. The same reasons why it didn’t work out.”
Her reply “It is hopeless. The “Can Make it” men are all jerks and the nice ones are all boring.”
So now, she is in the state where she thinks men are hopeless and she should just surrender to singlehood. Until the next time.
I just can’t seem to make her see that if the men that she goes for all turned out to be jerks. Then, maybe they should not fall into the “Can make it” in her estimation. Maybe, she should try giving some of the nice but boring guys a chance. After all, some people are just shy. And I think alot of it is her stereotyping too.
There are a couple of things I want to tell her but I know she will not take it in. She is too headstrong for advice. Haiz…So, it is another person in a rut. Different way but constantly repeating the cycle. Why do we all keep repeating the same mistake, over and over again?
My uncle has been in hospital for more than a week. Mum has been nagging me to visit him. But, I have been putting it off as I feel quite of awkward going alone. This is the one uncle I have always been awkward around since young. As a child, I never ventured beyond the upfront greeting of “Uncle”. As an adult, I never seem to know what to say to him after the polite address. So today, finally got to pay him a visit with my cousins.
My initial feeling was my uncle has really aged. He is still the strong personality he has always been. In fact, he was giving the nurse instructions on how to feed him the medication in a firm but polite way. But, there is great change physically. He was someone who could never stay at home. He retired early but was always going downtown, visiting places or friends. Now, he is restrained by poor eyesight and a lack of mobility. And to hear him lamenting about poor health in old age is quite unlike him.
There was not much we can do for him but to listen quietly to him. Even though, I was never close to him. My dad used to look up to him. It was this uncle who got his family to stand by me and offered me the most help when my dad passed away. I wanted to thank you somehow but the words never got out of my mouth. Somehow, I have never been able to overcome the awkwardness between us.
I was struggling to hold a conversation today. In fact, with our combined cousins’ efforts, there were still awkward lapse of silence. But, I guess I should try to visit again. I guess having someone visit is still nice in a way even if the person have nothing much to say to you. Maybe, I will drop by tomorrow after meeting my client.
