I love you so much. Please rest in peace. You are not only my uncle. You are like a father to me. I love you, 2 peh.
At least, you are not suffering from any pain anymore.
1. Income Tax filing.
2. Check with TL on pending fee to transfer to S.
3. Arrange to change my mobile no. and re-print namecards.
4. Check out schwesser notes for CFA I. I think I need.
5. Follow up on refund fm school.
I can’t remember the last time I feel so exhausted. Then, I recalled. It was when I was first starting out in my previous job. But, 8 years in age seem to make hell alot of difference in stamina.
I am trying to comfort myself that the steeper the learning curve, the faster I move on with it.
Was talking to my colleagues who had been here for a few months and learned a couple of interesting things.
1. I am not alone in my confusion. As one of them adeptly put it, ” the people here are too busy to really guide you. They are only too happy that you are here and they can download stuff on you.”
2. One of them actually erroneously thought that I seem very confident with what I was doing. That is completely the opposite of how I feel. Which reminds me that I should just stop acting like a mouse and curb the fear. Having more confidence that I can manage will help tremodously. Somewhere alone the way, confidence should translate into competence. Having confidence also means marching up to the boss to let her know my issues. And to go ahead and ask any questions I deemed neccessary even when I am made to feel like “The answer should be very obvious to you!”.
3. They are also lunching alone or with friends working nearby.
4. Initial meetings are done with boss. So, do not panic.
5. Oh! And there is a pantry somewhere in the office that I can buy breakfast and drinks.
Today sees an improvement. And, I still came back with a non functioning brain.
That’s good advice. It has only been two days. I refused to be beaten. I just have to try harder to beat it.
Had a stressful day at work. And I spent lunch listening to groceries talk.
They are really nice people. But, as much as I want to blend in. I think twice a week of groceries talk is about all I can bear. Guess I am not as auntie as I thought.
I am plotting to pester R for lunch shamelessly. The poor man works in the next building. Doesn’t matter what he thinks. Just as long as I don’t have to spend every lunch time listening to groceries talk. Trying desperately to stiffle my instinct that I am in the wrong place. Beside R, there is also S and W. But, that will have to be when I can take slightly longer lunch break.
I will try to stick it out for the next 2 days just to be polite. After that, I need some cranky, fun loving and psychotic people to hang out with. I predict my super stressed self is going to exhibit double my usual level of crankiness and psycho-ness.
Reminds me of a similar conversation on 28 May last year.
11.08am: Can’t, have lunch meeting.
11.25am: Want to meet me for afternoon tea instead?
13:57pm: Anytime before 5.30pm.
14:10pm: ok, 3.30pm then.
14:59pm: 4pm, I can’t already.
15:02pm: Ok, have a good trip. Haven’t tell me where you are going.
15:13pm: Wow! That’s great! Very fun! Alone?
15:46pm: Show me your photos when you are back. And buy presents!
15: 53: Are you still around RP?
That is when we gave up and called.
And then, we gave up the idea of meeting altogether.
