Hi, my name is Jen. I am 30 this year. Entering into a new decade of my life makes me feel slightly panicky. Which is funny since this feeling seems to come about overnight and 30 is just one day away from 29.
I have lived all my life in this tiny country which is nothing more than a little red dot on the world map called Singapore. We enjoy sunny weather all the year around. So, one of the thing I look forward to is to experience living in a place with all 4 seasons of the year.
I am single with no kids and no long term relationship. I guess this partially contributes to my indistinct sense of purpose in life at this moment. It also enables me to continue to cherish my fond dreams of furthering my studies overseas and spending two years to roam the world someday.
The reason why it is “Someday” is because, 1)I have not save enough money and 2)I have family obligations to keep me in my land of birth. I have recently taken my first step to fulfilling both dreams. I have registered myself recently for a course which provides me with the future option to pursue this interest further in Australia. For the next two years, I will be working, studying and saving real hard. (Hopefully)
My job allows me to face multiples of people, which can prove both interesting and tiring. Being an emotional person, dealing with people is one of the most challenging aspects of my job. I have no doubt these years of experiences with human nature will be invaluable in my life ahead.
After being out in the “University of Life” as my dad called it, I have long learned that my happiness index have very little to do with success in career, prestige or a truly material lifestyle. My sense of happiness is derived from the little things in life, simple pleasures, pursuing personal interests and my relationship with closed friends and family.
Being 30 has heightened a sense of disorientation about the future. I recognise that uncertainty in the future is part of life. After all, half the fun of living lies in not knowing what lies in the future. However, it has also spurs me on to seek out a direction I like to move towards.
And that is what “Vagabond at Heart” is about. It is all about self discovery. It is a journal to record snapshots of my life. So that, someday, I can link them all together and make sense of my life.